Inability

has it ever hit you that your inability to do something puts yourself in a very difficult and sometimes unpleasent situation.

you feel trapped, tired and wished you could have done something earlier so that you wouldn't end up in a proposition that might seem disadvantageous to you no matter how you look at it.

for me, it was my inability to express what most people put as a very unpleasent feeling; anger.

my inability had caused myself to get stepped over, mistreated and to a certain extend, taken advantage of. i guess this time, everything just fell in the wrong place at the right time, almost choreographed, one after another in perfect sequence, so perfect that i can't get time to gather myself so that my anger that i loath so much wouldn't appear.

people at work, people at home and even people at play. i've been trying very hard to not be such a nice guy for very long, but no matter how much i try, i just commit the same mistake, soften up and let people climb over my head.

i need to retaliate. i will savour every single second of it. let it work. i've had just enough.