Crack

sometimes even men with the strongest self-belief and tolerance crack under enough pressure over time.

this is the time for me.

i think the fact that i keep everything (expressions, feelings) to myself when i do things is an advantage and disadvantage to me.

advantage because if things go wrong, it wouldn't seem that bad, or at least it won't cause a panic when people realize that something is wrong and a solution can be sorted out better.

disadvantage because with everything bottled up, people always think that im happy "alright" even when im not and im not the kind that would show my negative feelings to others, simply because i feel that people don't need to be imposed by my sadness, angst and all that bad feelings. it becomes a time bomb and it'll just explode anytime.

im reaping the disadvantages now and although it's not the first time, i still hate this feeling.

the least you can do now is not to ask me if im okay because im not going to say anything.

i just needed an outlet.