Random Thought

was reading some stuff online and this suddenly hit me, when you lose yourself at some point of time in life, it's really hard to get back to what you were, or at least you won't be able to be the same you again.

im still looking for myself, or rather, what i can become. it's easy to just live the way i am right now, simple but not fulfilling and knowing myself, a flawed perfectionist (i'll touch on that some other time), i wouldn't be able to stand this for long before i feel empty everyday.

i can feel that there are things inside me that are already lost through a series of events. i have lost drive and interest in certain things that were initially very important to me. it's really hard to try to get a similar feeling back but i guess i should carry on trying.

is this random or what? =/