Question

it's not like literally a question that you answer, it's the action where you question someone about something.

i realized recently that i have a new one in my bag of issues that i have been consolidating in recent months and this one seems to be one of the issues that's affecting me the most. i never fail to not question about things that are said/screamed/given to me, which i guess it's because of my go-with-the-flow attitude towards things in life. but what took me aback was when i realized how much work i can cut or benefit i can get out of questioning about things that are being told to me.

sometimes i just can't think of questions to ask when im digesting what is being told to me and it's usually the case that i only think of questions when i start working on a particular task/problem/job. sometimes i get quite pissed off at myself for not inquiring more before doing something and ending up having to go one big round about a problem.. but that's life i guess..

one more thing to my list of new year resolutions..

Tis The Season To Be Jolly

amongst all the joyous christmas carols and songs as groups sing on the streets of orchard road, i cringe in pain with every step that i take, literally. it's not that im bitter about anything, it's just that the terrible heel spur that i suffered a while back has come back to haunt me and as much i try to be jolly to suit the season, the pain's just too distracting..

quite a lot has happened since i last posted and especially recently something really bad happened to some of my friends and i really wished it hadn't happened.. things will never be the same i guess..

human relations can be really tricky when things don't go as planned, but who can tell what would happen? what would go right or wrong? how can we tell if a certain relation has the possibility of moving on and which needs to move back and take some time off? if only we were not brought down by life's full of interruptions and complications.. but then again, we would be less than human if the complexity of our relations are being removed..

how i miss the christmas period while i was in poly, there would be so much going on and we would have huge christmas dinners. but i guess as all of us move on, we only have our memories to look back upon as the remaining bunch of us carry on the tradition of having dinner together during christmas..

still desperately searching for my old self and trying to get out of this slump that i somehow got myself into.. somehow i think it's working but i probably won't be able to get out of it before the new year starts.. so i've already decided, i'll just screw everything that's out of place this year and start all over when the new year comes.. what a plan eh? haha..

christmas just reminds me of the movie "Love Actually" and to quote:

"Christmas is a time for people with someone they love in their lives."

and also a time to tell the truth :)

Mess

somehow, i feel like i've once again allowed my life to be in a mess again.. it's not too serious a problem, just that i can't seem to do things right nowadays..

i'm constantly distracted and i can't seem to think in a very organized manner which leads to lousy planning for a lot of things..

have to start thinking about the things that i'm not doing right and rectify it soon before it goes crazy and i get frustrated... haha..

this is so not like me.. what's happening?