Weekend in Bali

was in Bali over the weekend for the annual Nusantara Cup (read: ultimate frisbee tournement) and im really glad that DK actually manage to get enough people to head to Bali for this cos we really opened our eyes and had a lot of fun together although i lost my phone.

but then again, losing my phone might not be a bad thing altogether. saves me from all the hussle that i might get normally and i think it actually helped me to unwind a lil. (refer to last post if you're lost)

was just seething through my photos and realized that there were 2 shots that i managed to catch the lighting perfectly. thought i should post it first. More updates soon. when i have the time. haha.

An offering.

Rice terrace.

More updates soon!

Mess

Hiatus for a damn long time once again.

As you might or might not expect it, it's gonna be a short one as usual.

My life's in quite a mess now, i feel like im not like the person i used to be before i went into army, or rather when im in BMT anymore. I forget the easiest things, getting tired easily, can never conjure enough energy to do anything anymore, i promise things to people and forget. i feel like such a mess now. i need to know what is taking away all my energy these days.

people at work are stirring shit behind me and although i don't really care, but it's indirectly affecting my life at work. do i really have to do everything infront of everyone to show that im actually doing something at work? sometimes i really wonder if what they say about me is true, that im not doing anything and that im inefficient. sometimes it just gets to you when so many people are talking about it.

if my old self was standing infront of me, he would be terribly ashamed of me.
if you haven't seen a man's confidence shaken and almost breaking before,

here you go.