IT'S COMING!!!
fine. im blogging again but it's still the same boring layout but im working on it (at least in my head).
im doing duty on a lousy friday (once again) and i've realized, suddenly, that this is actually my second last duty before i cease to exist in my squadron. people here will no longer get to push me around or get stung by my (sometimes) ruthless comments that i unleash upon retards and stupids.
(i know it sounds cliche but)it just seems like yesterday that i just commissioned and came over to this squadron and now im already leaving, preparing to re-enter a stage of my life that i've put to sleep since i came into the army and i just feel that im starting to come in touch with my old self once again.
i wanna be able to go all crazy, play my guitar every other day, think of wacky things to do, have lots of inspiration for designs and stuff. i haven't really had the energy, or rather, been able to be bothered to put in extra effort to do those stuff. Working mellows you out.
as much as i feel like letting it all out when im back in school, there's an impending pressure that's being set upon myself as i enter this stage of my life again knowing that it may well be the last time im studying and this will pretty much determine what's gonna happen later in my life.
well, i guess only time will tell what i'll actually do under that pressure, but one thing's for sure, im definately gonna get in touch with my old self again and probably find another side of myself as the crazy side of myself matures from back in my poly days.
im doing duty on a lousy friday (once again) and i've realized, suddenly, that this is actually my second last duty before i cease to exist in my squadron. people here will no longer get to push me around or get stung by my (sometimes) ruthless comments that i unleash upon retards and stupids.
(i know it sounds cliche but)it just seems like yesterday that i just commissioned and came over to this squadron and now im already leaving, preparing to re-enter a stage of my life that i've put to sleep since i came into the army and i just feel that im starting to come in touch with my old self once again.
i wanna be able to go all crazy, play my guitar every other day, think of wacky things to do, have lots of inspiration for designs and stuff. i haven't really had the energy, or rather, been able to be bothered to put in extra effort to do those stuff. Working mellows you out.
as much as i feel like letting it all out when im back in school, there's an impending pressure that's being set upon myself as i enter this stage of my life again knowing that it may well be the last time im studying and this will pretty much determine what's gonna happen later in my life.
well, i guess only time will tell what i'll actually do under that pressure, but one thing's for sure, im definately gonna get in touch with my old self again and probably find another side of myself as the crazy side of myself matures from back in my poly days.
posted by egomy at 6/23/2006 09:49:00 PM
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