sometimes i just really think that im asking for it. woke up this morning and had quite a bad case of diarrhea. in the evening, after i had finished a pickup game of ultimate in school and ready to leave for wala with the rest of the guys, i suddenly felt like puking (and stomach still feeling queasy). got to wala, ordered a beer anyway, didn't finish it and i actually met up with the guys from hall at wine bar where it was freaking cold and i couldn't resist drinking (as usual). halfway through, i started feeling feverish and achy, i had this coming the moment i was at wala but i still went on to do what i did and im suffering the consequences now. aching and feverish.

it sucks when your body is not exactly fully intact and you get the body aches, because all of your injuries will start hurting and frankly speaking, there's not a lot of parts of my body that are still out of harm's way. haha.

medicine. sleep. hope i can study properly tmr. roar.

Labels: hall, misc, personal

Labels: misc, personal

i need to buy something very urgently.

can anyone of you sell me some if you have some to spare??

i need more time, anyone can sell me theirs? leftovers also can. i really don't mind even if it's second hand. hah. i just realized how short of time i am for the sem already. i've like a shitload of backlog assignments and on top of that i still have trainings, band pracs and everything.

if there was a panic button somewhere in my room, i would be frantically pressing it right now. mashing the button til it's broken. argh.

i n e e d m o r e t i m e. . . .

time to reprioritize all my things. studies and assignments will have to come first. yes guys, not even ultimate is going to get in the way... at least for the next 2 weeks, after im done with my mid-terms, i'll be back to my nonsense again.

but oh well, that's another trouble for another time.

been on a photo frenzy lately despite all the hectic schedules (for everything except school work). here's some photos to pass time, do tell me what you think about it if you have any good/bad comments (cmon, don't keep them to yourselves).

here ya go, first up are the TH Pageant photos:

some point in time when i was younger, my mum pointed out that im way too independent, to a point that i probably won't be homesick even if i was away from home for a few years. i wouldn't say that she's wrong.

was telling val online yesterday that it was the first time in 3 weeks that i actually came back from hall and my sis and mum had been talking to me at every chance they can get, not asking me about what im doing in school, but just updating me about themselves. val said that if her sibling goes away for a few weeks, she would catch up alot with her when she gets back. i guess they must really miss me. haha.

somehow at night when my sister started talking and showing me stuff, i started to get a little restless but at the same time, i didn't want to disrespect her and go on with my own stuff so i still stayed on to listen and watch whatever she wanted to show me.

i realized that after 3 hectic weeks in hall of playing IBG, running DnD, thinking up proposals and rushing school work, all i was looking for when i got home was to have a little bit of quality "alone time". i needed some time alone to get away from all the work and just let my mind cool down a little.

this sem already seem very hectic, although it's only week 4. hope things will get better soon.

Labels: food for thought, hall, personal

not good enough.
just simply not good enough.

i know the weekend's and the tournament's over, no point brooding over it, but i just can't help it. there were a lot of what ifs in my mind after the last game on sunday. what if we were more calm, what if we were better drilled than we were over the weekend, what if nobody was bothered by the pressure.

i wish i could have done more, or rather, i know i could have done more, if i was as fit as i was back then, if i wasn't injury laden, if i tried pushing my body to work harder.

would there be a difference if these were more than just simply "what ifs"? i don't know and i'll probably never know since it's over now.

5 yrs into building this team and i really thought we were going to have what it takes to get a result finally, i really wanted it damn badly, but i guess things don't always go your way. that's how life is, you just have learn how to deal with it.

im trying to deal with it now, it's just that i can't swallow this harsh reality fully right now. it's a result that's unbelievable even to bystanders looking at us.

it's time to regroup, get back to peak fitness and time to push this body to new limits.

guys, a year's a long time to make a difference.
less thinking, get to work.
i know i will, what about you?

Labels: food for thought, personal, Ultimate