was reading chin fee's blog and she had an entry Do I need a Man? and it got me thinking a little (NO IM NOT THINKING OF GETTING A MAN)along that line just that it's a woman im talking about..

seems like as the years go by, more and more people start to ask me "why don't i wanna get a girlfriend" rather than "how come you don't have a girlfriend" the latter would be easier and more less irritating to answer as i can entirely blame it on my looks, which had been a target of remarks, some so mean that even i can't really take it, but well, there's nothing really i can do to my face, so might as well take it.. haha

when it comes to "why don't i wanna get a girlfriend", it's just sensitive. it's not like i don't want to, it's more like i can't get one.. then again, i'd ask myself sometimes, do i really need a woman? been through 2 courtships in recent years, it didn't exactly turn out very well and i wasted a lot of time (longest was more than a year.. not the best experience to have).. maybe im still a little bitter from whatever happened, but i can say that im pretty happy with the way things are right now..

being in the current situation that i am in now, i can do anything i want without needing to think about my other half and pretty much go out with anyone that i want to without having the fear of being "caught" by friends (although rumours can be quite irritating)...

but i might just be in denial that i don't need a woman because i do feel like something's missing in life sometimes, but that might just be lust and lust dissipates faster than you can say "aye".. and by the time u realize it's lust, it's pretty much too late already.. haha...